2016!

Dear 23 years old self,

I know 2015 is a confusing year for you,
where you started to re-evaluate whether what you're doing right now is the right thing to do,
you're afraid of facing the future, because everything seems vague and uncertain.

But don't you worry, you're almost finish, you're closely there,
and when the end comes, without you realise, you'll be well prepared,
you'll survive, like you always do.

So don't you worry, don't you worry, don't you worry.

Always keep your faith straight that 2016 will treat you well,
as long as you be kind and generous to people around you, don't forget to spread the love and forgive more, and of course mengumpat less! :)

I will love you more, I will kindly treat you, make things that will make you happy,
as I realise that I'll only genuinely happy if I start loving my own self. 

Sincerely,
Me

Happyyy and Weird

Great things start to happen when you least expect it-- true. 
But to be less expectant or to expect nothing are quite difficult. Especially for me.

I'm not that go-with-the-flow kind of girl.
Or that "just wait and see" person.

'cause I'm a girl who give it all.
Sampai letih, sampai puas. Then only I'll stop.

But recently I noticed something new 'bout myself.
I start to give zero efforts, in certain things
-- like in love/people.

And weirdly, I'm happy. Weirdly happy. Or I yang weird?
-- ala which ever suits best la teehee!

Random : The Perfect Boyfriend

I came across this The Perfect Boyfriend quote and I just realized that I didn't thrill to have such a boyfriend like in the quote anymore.

I MAY find it interesting back then. Okay I lied. It WAS REALLY interesting to read on when I was in college because come on guys who doesn't want to have such a perfect-boyfriend as described in there right?

But as I'm "evolving towards maturity" (laugh while typing this now), all those perfect-boyfriend quotes doesn't interest me anymore and I don't fancy to read them.

And those perfect boyfriend characteristics are no longer matter to me.

Lets just say that I've became a realist because I know there's no such thing as a perfect boy or girl for that matter.

" So dear boy, if this was me from few years back I'll definitely hoping you to say that you love me as many times a day - 7 days a week - every week of the year we're together. But now, here it's the realistic me who's writing that has a thought that it's okay if you hardly tell me that you love me because I've learned that love is more than just saying I Love You "

Because I've learned that I can still feel loved by the loving gestures made by my loved one. Or maybe when receiving a hand-made card from none other than yours truly. 
No need to say the L word often, so for awhile you may just put those words to rest.
So when you say those words to me they will remains special and really means something.

Now I realized that there's nothing I want more than being with someone who's not perfect, but got something in himself that can perfect me (i.e guide me in this worldly life and hereafter). Lets just say that we complete each other !

P/S - The Perfect Boyfriend quote was and still fun to read, but yeah like I said I'm "progressing towards maturity" (read - I . AM. AIN'T . FUN . ANYMORE) 

Home

10 more days,
To meet my lovely mom,
And only when I'm with her, I feel home and I'm home.

Because a house not really a home for me,
I can live everywhere and call anywhere as home,
Just name it, everywhere, anywhere.

Home is whenever I get to be with my mom.
Yeah I'm THAT clingy.

Happy Mother's Day Ma

I still remember when I was 13 years old, I got asthma attack and my mum decided to bring me home,to rest. After I got home,my mum made me a cup of milo,feed me lunch and (miraculously) it just took few hours for me to feel super-healthy again. Thanks mama,you always know what is the cure. "The love you give me is the best medicine that was pure". I LOVE YOU.

Lessons from At-Takathur

Just a reminder to myself and whoever come across this diary (read: blog) of mine. It was presented by Nouman Ali Khan (trust me,his explanations are never disappointing and fun too!). This time around,he talks about Surah At-Takathur which mainly about how human(we) usually distracted by entertainment and not using all the nikmah given to us in the way He command. 

♥ I guess I should at least kurangkan from listen/watch/do something melalaikan. Hopefully,by taking those baby steps will help me to get 'there' (to be a better muslim inshaaAllah) ♥

I should..

I should ask myself from the first time I lay my eyes on you
'Do you think you're a perfect match for him?'
'Do you think you deserve someone like him?'

Because you're a good man,
Really,you are baby.

But there's one question more
'Do you think I'm purposely fall for someone like him?'

No,because it just happened ac-ci-den-tal-ly

But when a "How-are-you" text,replied with something like that
I should know,that I should go
Maybe it was a "I-don't-have-heart-to-tell-you-but-please-stop-texting-me" from you?

I got you baby,
I should go,I know.